Don't mind me, just having a little whine.
I just uploaded a
piece of crap
hot mess into my scraps.
Total failure, but at least some proof to myself that I haven't done absolutely
zilch these past few months.
I'm really not completely sure where my motivation went. Of course at first I actually had about 0 time due to the pup, but when that let up, it somehow became hard for me to pluck up the patience and courage to just sit down and art.
After a bit of soul-searching, I've come to the conclusion that it has at least a wee bit to do with my exhibit and the results thereof. Or more accurately; non-results.
Oh sure, I got a ton of really nice comments and compliments, but I think that, somewhere in the back of my mind, I'd had hoped to at least get a commission out of it. Even if only to off-set the cost of the framing and such.
But no such thing happened. People expressed interest, but nothing came of it in the end.
Now I know there could be TONS of good reasons for that nót to happen (not in the least that this was nót a venue where people usually come to seek out an artist to commission), but apparently, somewhere in that head of mine, that little voice of insecurity spoke up: "Praise is nice, but if people don't want to buy from you in the end, how truthful was that praise?"
Yes. I am an insecure person.
How could you tell?
So I'm just writing it down. Not to ask for sympathy, but to just have said it and hopefully that will help to let it go. Because I know it's silly.
Here's what I'm still wanting to do this year (and I better get cracking then at my pace!) in no particular order:
- A reference of 2 shoes.
- A reference of a cute dog.
- At least one charcoal piece.
- At least one colored pencil piece (possibly a landscape - sort of).
- At least one pastel piece.
- A mixed media piece, better than the one in my scraps now.
And somewhere in between of course some graphite as to not completely lose my skills in that.
I might just steer clear from portraits for a while, or at least fan-art. For the time being, I seem to lose interest in my subject too fast to finish the piece unless I'm a huge fan myself, and that doesn't happen all that much. Of course I'll still make an exception for an exceptionally fantastic photo!
These coming few days I'll go on a fav-ing spree, since I'm once again behind on all your art as well. Please forgive me if I don't comment on everything, I'll do better again in the foreseeable future!